Not really sure where I stand.

I haven't blogged here for 4 years and it might be another 4 before I blog here again. MN just passed an amendment that will allow gays to get married, and I'm a bit conflicted as to how I actually feel about that. Or maybe I'm not conflicted and but I think I should be and that's the source of this nagging feeling I have. Most parts of me want to say "Marriage Equality is awesome and how could that not be from God!". The part that I can't shake is the "but what about the clear and literal reading of multiple passages of scripture". The issue of human sexuality is actually something that has impacted me more than I ever thought it would. I've never struggled with thoughts of homosexuality, none of my close friends or family have (to my knowledge), and I don't even really have any close friends or acquaintances who are gay. Yet, I lost my dream job because of this issue. 2 years ago I was a campus minister for a college in Pennsylvania, and this ministry position was the result of a partnership between the local Presbyterian Church and the board of directors that was in charge of the campus ministry program on campus. Long story short, the PCUSA voted to allow ordination of openly gay pastors, the Presbyterian Church I was a member of had no intention of leaving the PCUSA, the board of directors didn't like that which strained the relationship, and since my job was dependent upon that relationship...I was put in a situation where I left my job and moved back to MN. So, as I ponder this issue and what it means for the country, the Church, and ultimately myself..I am left with a million more questions than answers. More questions than answers..it seems par for the course these days, my faith is now defined more by what I don't know that what I do. And that's okay! To be authentically myself; I think it's awesome for the country that gays are able to get married, equality is awesome and something we as a society should strive for. For the church, I think we have bigger issues to tackle than trying to legislate personal choice. And for myself, I don't know..